you wouldn't know it for the lack of flowers or perfume or jewellery, but my husband is a romantic, and two nights ago he grabbed my hand and my glasses and pulled me outside.
he led me to the trampoline where he'd laid out our pillows, and our feather-tick, and it was a cold Alberta black, one of those crisp fall nights where you can see your breath and the stars are so bright they're all the diamonds you could ever need. and as soon as we lay down beneath that feather tick we saw a shooting star.
not five minutes later i heard a child crying, and we went inside and our two boys were awake. we picked them up, wrapped them in blankets and carried them out with us where we all lay down together and counted the stars. we spoke in whispers, quieted by the stretch of divinity and our humanity and we sang Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.
and then in the quiet that followed, kasher nestled against my neck and aiden against trent's, and trent told them how much we love them. that we will never, ever leave them. that they are so very important to us.
aiden nodded solemnly. kasher laughed.
then i told them that God made all of these stars, and knew them by name, and he made all of us, and knew us by name, too.
we don't tell them these things to boost their self-esteem, to make them feel better about themselves, or to force faith down their throats. we tell them because we have big dreams for them: that they might be God's disciples. that they might know, in spite of their weakness, in spite of their flaws and their humanity, God is gracious and good and forgiving. that no matter what happens, he will always love them, and will never, ever leave them.
God has big dreams for all of us: that we might claim his image and walk in it, here on earth. that we might dream HIS dreams for our children.
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and this is a message i'm hoping to share this coming spring at a first-ever Jumping Tandem retreat hosted by Deidra Riggs, in which we'll gather with people like Holley Gerth, Jennifer Lee, Michelle Derusha, and more, to learn things like:
*How to tell the difference between a dream that comes from God, and an idea you came up with on your own
*Ten reasons your dream won’t make it (and one reason it will)
*Learn the next steps you need to take to make your specific dream come true
*Identify the ways your gifts fit with your dream, and what to do about the gifts you don’t have
*What to do about fear and criticism (and fear of criticism)
*How to make a living on a dream
*Giving your dream a voice
*What to do if your dream has lost its dreaminess (how to get your dream off life support)
*How to be brave
doesn't this gathering of bloggers, artists and entrepreneurs sound like a dream come true?
what you’ll experience:
Excellent speakers, practical workshops, the opportunity to meet online friends in real life, cozy accommodations with many amenities, top-notch cooking, inspirational worship, and more. Space is limited, and we hope to keep the “rushed” and “frazzled” factors to a minimum.
We’re calling it a retreat because we’re slowing down the pace. Jumping Tandem will take place at the beautiful Carol Joy Holling Retreat and Conference Center in Ashland, Nebraska. The Conference Center provides acres of outdoor space. You’ll have the opportunity to stroll the grounds, sit by the pond, kick back by a campfire, and build meaningful friendships.
will you join us? april 19-21st? i would so love to meet you face to face... early bird registration begins october 1; to register, click here.
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we tuck the boys back into bed after star-gazing and then i hug trent for a long time. "thank you," i tell him. because he teaches me this. life isn't about agendas or goals or any of what i want to do. it's about being sinners with a message:
God loves me enough to know my name.
so excited to be giving away a copy of Elora Ramirez's beautiful, poignant new novel on trafficking, Come Alive, today ... just tell me about your dreams. what are they, and how is God speaking through them?
*sharing with ann, laura, michelle, jen and jennifer*


Can't wait to meet you in real life Emily. I'll be there, my prayers have been in this for a while. And your story reminded me of our summer evenings at the cottage bundled up in blankets on chairs with our head laid back to watch shooting stars. We tell our kids the same for the same reasons.
ReplyDeleteoh how cool!!! i am so excited to meet you in person, friend!
DeleteOh, I wonder if I would be able to go...would love to, but unless I get working more, I will only be with you in SPirit. WIll prayerfully consider. Nebraska, huh? Wow! I wonder what it would be like. SOunds wonderful...
ReplyDeleteI love that you all went out and got the boys and had them join you...spoken and unspoken love...deep into their souls. Dreams?? God and I are working through this:)
ReplyDelete"that they might be God's disciples"
ReplyDeleteYes, Emily, that is the goal. We never give up on it, no matter how old they get, or how old we get.
I love the image of you all on the trampoline at night. A precious family moment to treasure. You're a wonderful mama.
lisa, your praise means the world to me, coming from a wonderful mama like yourself.
DeleteThis would be a perfect retreat for me. My only hesitation is the money right now. But if I don't go, I will certainly pray for all who are being ministered to by such great women of faith--you being at the top of that list, my friend! Thanks for the info and encouragement!
ReplyDeletesweet beth, i hope you can come. thank you so much for praying for us, and for encouraging me in particular. it means so much. xo
DeleteI find it really hard to pinpoint my dreams, related to the first point on the Jumping Tandem's investigations: "How to tell the difference between a dream that comes from God, and an idea you came up with on your own."
ReplyDeleteDue to a lifetime of being told that I am not trustworthy or valuable (a long season that I am JUST beginning to heal and emerge very slowly from at age 30), I don't know who I am or what my dreams actually are. I do know this -- that I want more of God, more of Him, more and more and more. And I want to do something valuable with this time I've been given. Some days I think that takes the form of writing, other days art, and still other days I'm fumbling around in the dark trying to figure it out. But I'm still seeking, still keeping on with the fumbling, which I guess is the important thing.
my dear beth, i would like to send you elora's book... can you email me your mailing address? my email is wierenga.emily@gmail.com. thank you friend. praying for healing for you, and for hope...
DeleteEmily,
ReplyDeleteThis post is beautiful. I can picture your family snuggled together outside counting stars and talking about God. What beautiful memories you are making. I love how you guys stepped, without hesitation, from a romantic date on the trampoline to a family gathering with your babies
The retreat sounds wonderful. How lovely it would be to meet you and I've never been to Nebraska...
oh laura, i would LOVE to meet you in nebraska... you have such a genuine, kindred spirit...
Deletei wrote about my dream here:
ReplyDeletehttp://overweightsofjoy.blogspot.com/2011/09/dreams.html
love you em. xx
such a meaningful moment.. sometimes we sleep on the balcony in warm summer nights, watch the stars and just breathe in life and love and friendship...cool idea with the retreat as well.. if i were somewhere close, i would think about joining..
ReplyDeletei would LOVE for you to join us, claudia. oh, to meet you in person!
DeleteCan I tell you how excited I am to meet you face to face and kiss your cheek (if you don't find that weird, that is)?!
ReplyDeleteAnd yeah...I think you know my dreams already... :)
oh girl i don't think it's weird at all lol... i can't wait either!!! it is in fact a dream of mine come true.
DeleteI dream of giving my voice to women who feel restrained from being who they were created to be. I want to be the voice that bring hope to the hopeless. More than anything, I want to show women that they already have what it takes to make a difference. Most of all, I want to remember it myself.
ReplyDeletei LOVE your dream, friend. i share it, fully.
DeleteYou have no idea how much I wish I could be there. I will be praying for you - for all the beautiful women taking part in this amazing retreat.
ReplyDeleteI would love to sit and take with you, about dreams and family and faith and a million other things. Some day perhaps. In the meantime, I am so filled with joy at the ways the Father is using you - most especially in your own home. Love you darling girl.
dearest linda, one of these days we must meet, friend. okay? :)
DeleteThe last month or two I have been bombarded with God as loving father messages and imagery, and this is another one that sent me into (mostly good) tears.
ReplyDeleteEmily, I'll be praying for you and the women who gather in Nebraska to dream, dream, and dream some more! I just got back from a friend's retreat that filled my heart to overflowing, confirming and birthing dreams in so many of our hearts. God is moving among us, in spite of us, through us and because of us. He is BIG and has so much beauty to reveal in our every days. Praying for your time, as you share, and collaborate with the other beautiful, willing women. Love it! xoxox
ReplyDeleteamen adrienne! i totally agree!!
DeleteI love hearing about parents telling their young children about God and teaching them to follow Him at such a young age. They will be blessed by it. :)
ReplyDeletethank you so much becca :)
DeleteOh, Emily! I love how you've articulated a dream. This is my dream, too. I want my children to know that they are irrevocably loved by a God of unfathomable grace. Now and always ...
ReplyDeleteI can't wait to see you. I'm going to kiss your cheek, too. :)
this is beautiful, em!!
ReplyDelete"as soon as we lay down beneath that feather tick we saw a shooting star." I'd say God was a romantic, too. Those are lovely images you paint of your quiet times with your kids. Those are memories they'll take with them into adulthood and the experiences they'll create with their own families. Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteMy dream for many years has been to own a little cottage in the country. I'm preparing to move to a home on 6 acres in just a few days. It's not located in the South of France overlooking vineyards, as I'd always envisioned it, but I'm looking forward to discovering the shooting stars He has prepared to delight me with instead.
The retreat sounds really inspired and inspiring.
Blessings,
Carolynn
sweet carolynn, i love your dream. i would move there and be your neighbor in a heartbeat.
DeleteOh, if only I could go. I'd love to meet you in real life, my friend. This retreat sounds so connecting and restorative. Blessing to you and this event.
ReplyDeletethank you so much girl! yes, it would be amazing. one day perhaps? bless you.
DeleteAGH! My dreams are tucked so way down deep in my heart, so tender and dear, that going to a retreat like this bring on shivers of fear.... hmmm maybe that is exactly why I should go.
ReplyDeleteI loved your words today, about dreams. I felt like I was tucked right there with you under the stars.
may you know your dreams full, friend... you are such a blessing.
DeleteTrusting Him. That's what it's all about for me. Trusting that He's got me, even when I flop. He'll guide me, even when I'm uncertain. And He's got passions meant for me. And work for me, specifically. Whether it really is adoption, I don't know. Whether it really is developing a foundation for girls, I don't know. But for now, I choose trust and I obey where He leads.
ReplyDeleteThis is great stuff, friend. This simple truth-telling. It's perspective we need more of.
you are such an encouragement, amy. thank you.
DeleteEmily, the picture of this whole scene, you two, underneath the stars, and then your two boys and your speaking HIs love into them. . . it brings me to tears, the beauty of it all. Thank you. And I love the hope and gift of this new retreat this spring. Bless you!
ReplyDeleteoh jennifer, may you know what a beautiful woman of God you are. it shines through your words, through your profile picture, through it all. xo
DeleteEm, visiting from Playdates with God. Didn't realize we are neighbors there. I love this "date", how you see the romance in the everyday, the small, but oh-so-holy moments. Love that you brought the kids out there with you, and what you told them. My reasons are the same. It's important for them to have a good grasp on where they stand with God--there are so many opinions out there. Love to hear you all are doing this retreat--this makes my heart soar. I hope to be there.
ReplyDeletei hope you get to be there too, sweet nacole. xo
DeleteOh, friend, I've been riding rough on dreams lately and they are beginning to fade. Your words awaken the sleeping bits. Thank you. Wouldn't I love to dream with you and Deidra and Jen and Lyla and all those dreamy gals? I'll be praying for this wonderful shindig. :)
ReplyDeletei would SO love if you could dream with us, in person, sweet laura. to meet you face to face would make me so happy :)
DeleteOh cheering you all. Cheering wildly and so excited to see this generation of dreamers. So excited.
ReplyDelete~Lisa-Jo
thank you sweet lisa-jo... wish you could be there :) would love to meet you face to face.
DeleteI know it'll be a great retreat. I'm gonna try to come, but it will be hard, timing-wise.
ReplyDeleteIf I come, I'll just come and listen. I stopped dreaming a long time ago. Life needs me, and I show up. Then I sleep. That's it.
oh megan i hope you come. i really really do.
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