Wednesday, July 25, 2012

a love letter to my body: you are more


Dear Body,

I hear you rooting around in the darkness, searching for your sippy cup and you find it, and I’m so proud of you, taking care of yourself, in your playpen by the window.

We’re sharing a room together this week, at camp, and you’re over there, too, in the toddler bed beneath your Thomas the Train blanket, and when I held you today I nearly cried for the way you’re growing in leg and in vocabulary.

And I turn in the darkness, find you silhouetted next to me in the arc of a German nose and high cheekbones and you’re pulling at the covers, and I tuck them tenderly around your toes.

Because you are more than a size 34-B, more than a 31” waist, more than the five-foot-nine-inches that fill out your second-hand clothes. You are a size that fits 11-month onesies and 2T Spiderman shirts and a men’s pair of flannel pajamas.

You are your grandmother in your son’s earlobes, your father in your infant’s lips. You are the love in your husband’s eye, the longing in his hands, in his legs, in the neck that reminds you of the tree in his parent’s backyard where he inscribed your initials.


(For more, won't you follow me here, to She Loves Magazine, where I'm humbled to be a new contributing writer? Love you, friends. Thank you for all of your support and love this week... it's meant so much to me.)

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    1. you are so good to me, renee. bless you. thank you.

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  2. just FYI i don't see the link when I scroll over the words. But for you? I'll google. xoxoxox

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    1. okay, so i love you. and i've missed you. and thank you. for caring enough to google. i'm thinking about you so much, and praying, and when you grab a moment, email me and tell me how to specifically pray for you. love em.

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  3. "this skin is but a canopy to stretch out around those you love to keep them warm and dry against a world that pins beauty against a billboard and forces it to surrender its soul." Wow. Just Wow.

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    1. carolynn, you are seriously one of my favorite people. not just because you're so wonderful to me, but that certainly helps. :) love you friend.

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  4. very cool....followed over and def enjoyed...we should def give grace to ourselves...and our bodies...

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    1. LOVE how you take the time to not only comment, but to encourage, brian. and i LOVE the new photo. bless you, as you give grace to so many...

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  5. "you are important and insignificant, and God knows the number of hairs on your head and yet you were made from dust." So much truth here. It's so hard to remember which we are at the correct moments. I hate when a think I'm significant, when I ought to be small and I hate when I hate myself when I ought to remember I'm the daughter of the king. LOVED this one, Em. Yes, I'm bookmarking it for when I need it again. :)

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    1. oh girl i'm so glad God spoke through me to you. love you.

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  6. I love your writing...God has gifted you and I pray HE continues to use that gift for HIS Glory and your healing too.

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    1. this encourages me so greatly today. thank you friend. bless you.

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    1. oh girl what an amazing comment! thank you. love you.

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  8. Really lovely, Emily!! I ran here after just posting my own piece on the body as well. Mine involves whales, though, and the Olympics (which always make me hate my body . .. ) Thanks for this beauty!

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    1. i am so glad to meet you, dear leslie! thank you for the encouragement, and the honesty. bless you in your journey towards love...

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  9. wow, that's one of the best things I have read lately, very deep, powerful.

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    1. oh gina, thank you. it's all God. he gave me these words, and he loves you so much, friend.

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  10. I followed the link because your words captivated me and I had to read them all. You made me rethink so much. I am in the process of losing weight---in my case I am overweight to the point of being harmful to my body and particulary my knees that are full of osteo-arthrits. (I have been putting the equivalent of 400 lbs of pressure on those poor knees at a weight of 192 at 5ft.6in.) I am eating HEALTHY now---truly and am already feeling better. I use scripture to keep me from eating to soothe my stress.
    But I have been so hard on myself and you helped me see myself in a different perspective. Thank you.

    I also watched a Dr. Phil episode yesterday, which I NEVER do. I was reeled in by the anorexic young woman and the actress Tracy Gold from the sitcom Growing Pains. I would not have paid attention EXCEPT that I immediately thought of YOU, your struggle, and your determination to get the word out to others and help them in their struggles with anorexia. Your blog has made so many of us aware of this illness in a way we would not have been otherwise. (I have pre-ordered your book for our high school library). Again, thank you. Know that you are helping others in so many ways.

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    1. my beautiful beth, thank you. this brought tears. i am so glad God was able to minister through this piece, that he could use my humble words and the pain i've gone through to help others. may you know his grace and his forgiveness as you work towards learning to love yourself (something i'm still learning how to do, too). and thank you, for helping me get the word out about his healing for eating disorders. you are such a blessing. xo

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  11. congrats, em, on your place as a contributing writer! that's awesome!

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  12. Beautiful post and great reminder! Thanks,Emily!
    If you're interested, I just interviewed a Christian artist on my blog. I thought you might enjoy what he had to say.
    Here's the link:
    http://projectpaperie.blogspot.com/2012/07/meet-graphic-designer-jim-lepage.html

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