he stumbled down the street in his pajamas and cardigan, cars swerving around this old man who wore desperation on his face and
if we truly knew the weight of the world, we would never rise from our knees.
he didn't see the cars, the way his face was twisted in anguish as if he felt so lonely that he'd up and left his bed just to know he was alive
and i drove and the world blurred tears and i didn't know his story, all i knew is i wanted to stop the car and give him a hug and what was it like to feel that alone?
a boy on a bike, then, a boy with a face so long and haggard he rivaled the old man in the sweater and i wondered if they'd bump into each other and if that jarring, that human contact would give them enough faith to make it through tomorrow
and i wished i could empty the casinos and the parks and the nursing homes and the alleyways and carry the lonely home and they could sit there in their pajamas and their cardigans, their faces haggard from no one seeing them and they could sit there and see each other...
and then maybe they wouldn't have to run into the street and feel the rush of death just to know they were alive

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if we truly knew the weight of the world, we would never rise from our knees.
ReplyDeleteoh, i have no words. just. amen.
May I live life through these eyes of compassion...
ReplyDelete... seeking to feel the rush of death to know they are alive...
ReplyDeleteAnd Jesus is right there in the "least" of these.
To have the compassion to see the way you see transforms a world :)
xx
I love this story...sad, yet hopeful with your final question.
ReplyDeleteYour prose is poetry! "Feel the rush of death just to know they were alive..."
ReplyDeleteHow often I have held that person in the counseling room!
Thanks for opening your heart, and ours, once again...
Oh emily..."if we truly knew the weight of the world we would never rise from our knees...so true...
ReplyDeleteAs always...I have some pondering to take with me today...
Blessings to your day...
You carry your life story in empathy and compassion that continually inspires. Continually humbles.
ReplyDeleteOh isn't that what we all long for, friend? We just want to know and feel that we're alive! Only Christ...only Christ!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful telling of the pain, the lost that is walking around. I love that you see our humanity as being a force for awakening.
ReplyDeleteThe more I read of your writing, the more I want to read. So beautiful. Thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteI love the way that you tell stories. I want to live with eyes opened like this!
ReplyDeleteYour read people's faces so well.
ReplyDelete"if we truly knew the weight of the world, we would never rise from our knees." absolutely. great line, emily!
ReplyDeleteI love your tender, merciful heart, and I expect God does too. Blessed are the merciful...
Strength and comfort to you today!
"we would never raise from our knees" ... breathless.
ReplyDelete"seeking to feel the rush of death just know they're alive again"
ReplyDeleteemily, love, you broke me. my heart flew to a suffering one whom i already know, and my tears flowed like water.
thank you for reminding me. i have a visit to make.
This kind of compassion comes from someone who knows exactly what it feels to be "unseen."
ReplyDeleteThank you for reminding me to see all who are in pain around me.
oh, the wait of these burdens can be crushing. and when we can't physically lift these lonely souls up, may we lift them up in prayer, into the arms of Jesus.
ReplyDeleteI just love your heart, Emily. Oh to empty the casinos and nursing homes....and carry the lonely home! So true, my friend, that human contact often gives us enough faith to make it through tomorrow. What a lovely picture of His arms reaching... Thanks for sharing! ~ jen
ReplyDeleteYour heart is too large for your body, dear. Have you ever read "Same Kind of Different as Me"? It tells the story of a woman whose heart was the same as yours and how she took one of those people and made him part of her family. It is such a beautiful story of her being Jesus to one of the least of these.
ReplyDeleteif we truly knew the weight of the world, we would never rise from our knees.
ReplyDeletewow. beautiful. I miss you. I love your heart.
wow moving piece em...esp this time of year i think of the loneliness that settles on many even among others and wish i could touch that place for them...
ReplyDeleteoh to love them more
ReplyDeleteo Emily, I know, I know.
ReplyDeleteOur stories this week, Em, carry similar heart-wrenching threads . . .
ReplyDeleteOh, Jesus.
I think it's no small mercy that God keeps us from truly knowing the weight of the world. He knows it would crush us. He gives us glimpses, though, and you are ever-so-faithful to see the desperation and need. I love your heart.
ReplyDeletethen maybe they wouldn't have to run into the street and feel the rush of death just to know they were alive
ReplyDeletethe desperation of mankind... I thank God for his salt in the world, and His light that cannot be hidden...
my we be ever faithful to Him
may we reach out His love to these forgotten
Hey hey, something that has weight and makes me think. Beautiful piece.
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my heart knows this ache, too. xo
ReplyDeleteit's true. and just to live, with joy, is grace.
ReplyDeleteJust last night I saw this poor man's kindred spirit here in my town, walking down the middle of the road, head down, and I called 911. Then I drove back to illuminate him with my headlights as three other cars did the same. And I prayed. Might our compassion and prayers illuminate hearts when our hands can't touch?
ReplyDeleteYou never cease to grip my heart and amaze me dear dear one. Thank you for your compassionate heart.
ReplyDeleteVery thought-provoking to say the least... Makes me realize just how blessed we are!
ReplyDeleteAwe, beautiful. A heart truly breaking for what breaks His.
ReplyDeleteI KNOW! I just left a gas station late at night with a screaming toddler in the backseat of a car next to me, screaming DADDY DADDY! and the daddy was inside, buying something, and he didn't care and he spoke sharply when he came out, and it broke my heart.
ReplyDeleteThis brought me to tears.
ReplyDeleteWith what we're dealing with in our lives right now this made me cry.
ReplyDeleteyou make blankets of empathy and tenderness, miss em.
ReplyDeletexo
Through tears...so much pain in this world...helping one at a time with you Em.
ReplyDeleteThe enormity of it is overwhelming Em, and we long to do something to make it better. If we would all do the things He would have us do, it would make a difference. I am convicted.
ReplyDeleteOh, Emily! This was haunting in a good way. Thank you for the heart check that this provided.
ReplyDeleteEmily, I love! this, it is so beautiful,
ReplyDelete"and i wondered if they'd bump into each other and if that jarring, that human contact would give them enough faith to make it through tomorrow "
this is so true the way we're made, the way we need each other, how even a stranger gives us something tangible to take with us.
God designed us to need Him to fill that void in our lives. Until we find Him, that emptiness can never be fulfilled. We love Him because He first loved us, and then His love can flow through us to others. Thank you for hosting, and for the beautiful and thought provoking post.
ReplyDeletemay we all remember that we pass those like this daily who just hid it better or havent made it to gut wrenching overwhelmed lonely yet.
ReplyDeleteCONNECTION....
just one touch...
it is the line between living and dying
And what of all those who are "running" on the inside, churning in thoughts of despair that no one can see? They are out there too. So many we see with our eyes--so many others hide in the darkness.
ReplyDeleteGod knows, and I am willing. Lord, help me, am I willing?
love your compassion em..you see those people and it needs people who see..
ReplyDeleteThis is jarring, a sad thought. But then again, we've all felt alone before. Maybe not as alone as the man you saw, but maybe so? Maybe we feel lonely or sad or miserable or whatever at times so that we feel compassion for one another; a feeling of, "I've been there."
ReplyDeleteSuch a sad story, but I know the truth of it.
ReplyDeleteYou have such a good heart.
ReplyDeleteA lovely friend of mine, a spiritual mother to me, once said, "We so need to be needed" - the older generation. And I so needed her - to mentor me, to spirit mother me, teach me about faith longevity, marriage longevity - so many things. Your store reminds me that there are so many people who need to be needed:)When you are needed, you aren't alone!
ReplyDeleteWow, your imagery in this is impeccable. I could feel the yearning and understood the desperation of toying with death to know you're alive.
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We are all the walking wounded, aren't we? And some wounds teach me love. love your beautiful heart, Emily.
ReplyDeleteI want to be in the room; I want to love on the haggard faces from my own places that have known the alone.
ReplyDeleteYou. Are. Beautiful.
Hi there, seems I'm a bit late in sharing but, I can really really to this.
ReplyDeleteI posted something along the lines of what you've written.
Thanks for the prompt.
To see with your eyes. For my heart to beat like yours. This is my prayer. Love you, girl.
ReplyDeleteHaunting, Emily. I think I will be carrying these words with me for a while.
ReplyDeleteI found your site through Claudia's and can see why she finds your writing so wonderful to read. I, too, write lots of prose and don't stick too much to the dictates of poetry, although, sometimes a rhyme slips out time and again. You are talented and young so have a lifetime of writing ahead. I have grown children and grandchildren now but will always have a passion to write. The piece is beautifully done.
ReplyDelete"and then maybe they wouldn't have to run into the street and feel the rush of death just to know they were alive."
ReplyDeletethere are so many ways in which we run into the street, aren't there?