Friday, October 7, 2011

slowing down (guest post by amanda dodson)

It’s one of those mornings, when I’ve run out of liquid creamer for coffee. There’s the powdered kind, but it’s old and clumpy and it lands into my mug of caffeine like balls of sour grapes.

And there are a set of dishes in the sink waiting to be loaded into the dishwasher. And two cabinet doors are open revealing a disheveled row of Tupperware.

I begin quietly tidying up before the morning rush. The weekend proved to be busier than normal even for our family of five. I tell myself in the still of the a.m. that life must slow down a bit.



And as I wipe in circles while the water bounces off the steel sink, I notice an odd shaped something in the crevice where the stovetop meets the counter. Inside the narrow cleft is a tiny tooth, faint dried blood still stuck to the root. It’s from the mouth of my ten year old. And I vaguely remember it coming out. It happened between packing a diaper bag and finding a matching shoe on Saturday. And I think I said, “Great … I’ll meet you in the van.” That was two days ago.


And I put the dirty rag down to inspect this little piece of my middle boy. I replayed the rush of the weekend, scampering hectic to arrive and minister to a community where we serve as short term missionaries. But why didn’t I slow down for sixty seconds to hug or high five? What was more important than recognizing a simple milestone that slips in quietly before vanishing altogether?



And I can spend my days loving others and turning the other cheek and carefully placing fruits of the spirit into a worn woven basket, but if I miss ministering to the very people in my own home, I’ve simply failed this job of mothering.

And I say the words in my head, once and then twice … this is my ministry.

These are my children. These are the young who will grow to carry the torch that was lit in our home. And the songs we sing and the words we whisper will be the hum of their grown up hearts. And the responsibility is grand. And it’s worthy of pause to celebrate the little and the large of each and every day.


(thank you, dear amanda, for sharing these humble and holy words...)

16 comments:

  1. Lovely, and so true. Thank you for sharing.

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  2. Simple but oh so profound.

    Janelle
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  3. Thank you for sharing this tender moment, this God-breathed refocusing of your mama heart. I love it when I read things like this...I want to say BRAVO! Yay...children really, really, really NEED present, mindful mothers! God bless you!

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  4. Your children are blessed to have you as their mother. God bless you back. :)

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  5. oh this is so good. i need to slow, too. i pray that HE slows us, and well. may we see him, hear him, and love on them the way he would. amen.

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  6. that was beautiful...and so so true. great truth right there. thanks for sharing. hope you both have a great weekend.

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  7. Oh, parental conviction! I am there with you, trying to grow in this role and love them better. Always better.

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  8. That Amanda D. rocks my world with her honest and poetic take on all things life. Thanks for hosting her here, E.

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  9. lovely thoughts .. so glad to meet you ~~

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  10. It's soooo much easier to be the person we want to be for everyone outside of our own walls; I know! Very convicting. And lovely. Thanks for your words.

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  11. As always, so beautifully expressed. And my heart just melted at those tiny baby feet.

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  12. I'm thinking about what Brandee said, about it being easier to offer ourselves to people outside our own walls.

    It's easier for me to do anything for a few hours than it is for a lifetime. Maybe that's why the presence, the giving, that we're blessed to offer to our families varies so in its demands, moment by moment.

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  13. Emily's right. These words you write? Humble and holy. Just like the beautiful life you're living here... You are shining. You are.

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  14. Ouch...why do we minister to everyone except the ones we are most called to?

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  15. Absolutely needed to hear this message today, Amanda. I am shutting the laptop and going off to hug my boys.

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